(Me, Trying To Be In Your Shoes)

I am afraid of heights
but thinking of you
makes me want to jump
from the highest building
to make up the courage to
follow you on Instagram

I loathe reading
but talking to you makes me read dictionaries from cover to cover
all editions of thesaurus
compiling lists of metaphors
just for me to end up being
silly and ask you a question
about the shapes of pizza.
but hey, i scored our first date
without reading any tips!

I never promise so that I will
get guilt off my hook
but do ask me anything,
ask me for everything,
i won’t hesitate to only say ‘yes’
and ‘yes’ is absolute,
probably the most optimist i have been for so long

but for you,
i will be brave,
and now i am.

i cannot say the things that you always want me to say
i may not be as conscious of your feelings as how you want me to
but
if i were to try
no sentence can complete the meaning of you to me
no numerical expressions can conclude on how much i love you
because it is too much.
and it is growing more and more than ever.

It would be better if i could not make you speculate on my feelings and say it myself
but this will do too,
i hope it helps.

(p/s: he approves!)