H.I.M.

how 

could 

you?

i was between shying away and drowning myself

in the seven seas

concealing invisible bruises that nearly

made me throw stones to

 the mirror into shatters

as i cut myself from putting my

heart together 

i understand why you had to break mine

because you never had any. 

you brought me closer to God

but it was you that i was worshipping

i was on my knees for you in front of Him,

no wonder He would give you 

such arrogance

to come with mercy

and never leave 

without leaving another scar

on me.

i thought that-

screw my thoughts 

when the truth is shoved right my face

like 

the memories that you keep rewinding

just to keep me leashed beside your throne

but 

God is more than a capital H.I.M.

just as He gave me the love 

and give you the power

He took away the love 

hence demolishing all your powers

all that is left is blazing flames

that burns all of you

and 

returns back all of me.