Sunday, 14 April 2019

Lipstick Stain

09:58:00
i’m sorry
that i’m not sorry
with the champagne 
pink smudges 
like two glasses
of liquor you
clinked your nose
to my cheeks
cheers 
for everlasting 
love

i have a bad habit
of leaving marks
on people’s lives
i would purposely 
misplace things in
their cars
leave notes 
carve touches on
their skin

you can’t get rid of me 
as how you would brush
off my apologies 
but you can’t help 
looking at the stain
on your white shirt

any bleach won’t
clean it like 
you have mashed up
my mind with the 
thoughts of you

i would buy you another 
shirt,
but it will never feel the same 
although it’s new
like how irreversible 
my feelings are 
for you. 



Thursday, 11 April 2019

Talk

09:16:00
"How was class baby?" Amir texted me as soon as I finished all my classes for the day. I was stretching my body on a counter chair at Starbucks and keeping myself awake since I want to finish my in-class assignments for Online Journalism while waiting for the traffic jam to die down.

"It was fine sayang", I answered briefly. There was nothing much that happened during the day other than having two lectures and two in-class assignments. The mediocre Communication student life I would say; writing and brainstorming all day long. Nothing interesting for me to tell him. He was my senior anyway, he had been through this too.

My phone beeped again. Expecting an "Okayyy" or shifting the conversation to a new topic, Amir said,

"Fine je babyyyy?"

Oh wow, this is new to me. I would not say that guys hate to listen to our rants but most of the time they are forced to listen. This is the first time that I was asked to elaborate more about my day although it's plain and unseasoned. I continued to talk about the in-class assignments that I had and my attempt on completing it before we go for dinner together. It speaks a lot on how he genuinely cares about my wellbeing in general and makes me feel loved.

We always overlook on the importance of asking people how their day went and just let them talk about it. It may look simple because we usually use it for conversation starters all the time but it does help a lot especially to check on our loved ones. It helps to uplift their spirits after going through the same thing over and over again every single day, and calm them down and give them an outlet to vent when they are having a rough one. The key point here is to just listen with empathy and compassion.

This act of Amir may look small, but I am definitely taking note and giving him credit on how he always reminds me of the values in life that I may overlook on how big the role is in our lives. I am happy that I have a partner that would always let me talk, and I hope that the ample space given by him will not make me selfish to also give him an outlet to speak up too.

So, how are you? Let's talk!

Xx,
M.


Tuesday, 9 April 2019

After A While

07:41:00
After a while
I have realised
that love does not
hide our dictionaries
and steal our vocabularies 
as we stutter through
the 8 letters

if anything,
love is a 7th Grade 
English teacher that would
encourage you to read on 
extracts and passages from
your heart in front of a
whole classroom that would
give you daring glares when you
pronounce a word wrongly,

but love would teach you to 
be brave, applaudes when you
succeed and guides you 
through every page. 

You are not required to become
a handyman,
as love is not a workshop 
of broken hearts for you
to fix.

It is a new Do-It-Yourself
toy set that your dad gave you
on your 5th birthday to assemble. 
Some parts may seem odd
but they just fit perfectly.

Love is definitely a game of Jenga,
one wrong move and your 
tower will topple.
but just like the rules,
you can rebuild your tower 
and challenge your friends for
another round. 

you can learn to love again. 

After a while,
I have realised,
that indeed,
the right man
will make me realise 
how love should actually 

be.